Friday, September 29, 2006


For a long time I have been heavily attracted to MILFs. From what I have heard this is a fairly common thing for males in their mid twenties. I don't quite know what it is about them that gets me hard.

Of course, all the letters to my favorite magazines almost always mention the fact that they have more experience. This, apparently is the attraction. I am not so sure. I do agree to some extent, but as a virgin, I have no basis for comparison. I have no way to say that is the case and that females my own age have no clue what they are doing.

Some might argue the Oedipus complex, maybe that is the case, maybe it isn't. I don't know enough about that stuff to make an informed opinion. I'd argue on the side of no however.

No, for me it is all about the looks. I like to see a few wrinkles here and there. A few little flaws in her appearance make it more real for me. Now, obviously in porn, work can be done to clear up many of these things. But in the real world, quite often they are on show.

Take for instance one of my co-workers. She has several decades on me, yet drives me wild. Every time I have to see her in person I am very uncomfortable. The last time I saw her she had tight jeans on and a tight shirt. Now I don't know if she notices the erection trapped in my pants but I think she does. She will lean forward to offer a glimpse of her cleavage. She will bend over and let me get an eyeful of her perfectly rounded ass.

If I would have to pick a place to perv on people it would be the supermarket, all those bored housewives (like porn could ever lie? ;)).

But as to why I prefer to fantasize about older women over any else, I couldn't put my finger on a single reason. If I could pick one it might be true beauty. Let me explain.

Women my own age are masters with make up, they deftly throw it on and often make themselves seem so much different. But when you seem them without it on, they look almost a whole other person. Now I am not naive enough to think that as women mature, they don't use make up any more - far from it. Speaking from great inexperience, I think they use it more subtley. Instead of applying a few coats of the stuff, like it was paint, it is used sparingly. Used to accentuate their natural beauty.

I'd also like to throw in the ability to have a conversation with them. Many women my age are just unable to hold a conversation about anything other than Paris Hilton or shoes. I don't mean to sound mean, but I just don't care! In my experience the older women have something a little more substantial to say.

Or maybe I just plain don't know what I am on about! :P

But anyway, to any older women reading this, if you feel you are no longer able to compete with your younger ilk, you may be wrong. The young, boorish dolt you breeze past on the street may have you in his mind later that night!

I don't know her name, but she helped me!

Maybe this will be inspiration?

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

My last bit of wank fuel

For your wanking enjoyment :)

I'm back

I've been a little quiet lately.

All laziness :)

I've also caught yet another cold. I am most definitely not having a good year in regards to colds. At least this one is on the way out. So, how goes the wanking.

Not too bad. I took advantage of the precious few days the traveling parent was not around to make the most of the opportunity to wank away. And wank I did!

That particular parent has spent 15 days in the country and 11 out. While in the coutnry I managed a measly 10. While out, I managed 15 times! My original posit that I get more wanking done with less parents around is certainly coming true.

I also had a chance to play with my fleshlight again. I realised that I hadn't used it for about a month and my penis was certainly glad to get back into it. I also started to relax a bit more. I would go through all the trouble of getting it ready, and using it for only a few minutes and then going to the trouble to pack it away.

I of course only last a few minutes because of all the anticipation and excitement of using the thing. If I think of using it in the morning, it is on my mind for the rest of the day, leaving me mostly aroused.

But after the usual lasting of a few minutes only. I felt a little disappointed with myself. But fuck it says I. I sit around for a little bit and wait for the refactory period to end. Watching porn helps to identify the exact second when things are ready to go again.

After that, I would drop a little bit more lube in and go for another round. The second time round I lasted a long longer, actually managing to thrust for a few minutes and still hold on. It was fantastic.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Sugasm #47

The best of the sex blogs this week by the bloggers who blog them. Featuring the top 3 posts voted by Sugasmer participants. Want in Sugasm #48? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the linklist within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks
Lazy Sunday (
“I flick my thumb across your clit, as if I were lighting a match, which, in many ways I am.”

The Secret (
“I came back to the bed and started to lavish kisses on him, savoring the inches of skin on him that I knew were mine and mine alone.”

You’re all I want (
“Go to the couch. Bend over. For me.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
How to Cure Female Ejaculation (

Editors’ Choice
Fetish, Fashion and The War On Terror (

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Morning quickie (
The weekender #4: The beginnings of our lifestyle (

Asian 1 on 1 (
Myspace Christine Dolce Nude (

Erotic Writing and Experiences
At a bar in a strange city (
Be Sure to Tip Your Waitress (
I *not only* write porn, but I also just do it. (
Insatiable (
Just for the taste of her (part two)…and breakfast
Last Night (
Mr Henry writes debauched dialogue (
The Rain (Part I) (
Sexwars (
A visit (
You Can’t Come To My Room Tonight (

Sex News and Sexy Reviews
Fat Man In A Barrel (
Meet the Sperm Testers (
Product Review - Head Candy (
Sex and Booze (
Sex Toys For Vacations (
Straight Porn Review: Squirts So Good (

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Ewww, your parents had sex? (
Fucking To Heal (
Half-Nekkid and Tending to Nature (
I’ve Been Outed…. AND I’m Back….. (
No Rumors (
The origins of the cane (
Screaming Orgasm- it’s not just a drink at the bar (
Sex and cupcakes (
A Sexual Theory (
Snip-Snip, Quack-Quack-Quack (
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Monday, September 18, 2006

Finally! Some privacy!

I haven't disappeared :)

I had some university work to attend to. The first assignment came back the other day, and wasn't really the mark I was hoping for. So I put in a lot more for the next one, which has been and gone, so I will see how that went.

The traveling parent has just left as well. Finally! It was quite difficult this time round, because they seemed to spend an inordinate amount of time around here. More than usual. But they are gone, freedom! ...for 9 days.

But, so far this month I had not, not even once had a crack at the fleshlight. I made up for lost time last night.

In other news, the parents have more or less confirmed that in 2007, they will be going away for a whole month, February. I am looking forward to it!

Monday, September 11, 2006

Why do I masturbate?

For me, masturbation is not just a form of release. I know many people see it as something you do when you are after some quick nourishment, like eating a burger. There are alternatives, better alternatives, but there is always the burger to fall back on if all else fails. I don't particularly like this view.

It fails to take into account the people who have problems with self - esteem and confidence. This is me.

In a few weeks, I have a birthday. That will be all those years without ever being on a date, being a virgin and always fighting a battle with yourself in your head.

Now don't get me wrong, I am not in any sort of position to do any harm. I am doing well at pretty much everything else in life. University is going great, I start post - graduate studies next year, I have a stable life, modest but adequate employment, a social life and many friends.

As any breathing male, I have had sex on the mind since the second I hit puberty. I was a lot more caught up in my own world during school, and as such I never had much of a chance to get to know anyone of the female persuasion. I also was not the most disciplined of eaters, and put on heaps of weight. I don't wish to blame anyone for that,

So, where does masturbation fit in?

After one of many sex-ed classes, we had to read some text book. I hit upon the page on masturbation, and read it over and over and over. I could, for the most part, experience sex without the seemingly huge task of getting a partner.

In the start, it was all about release. And the thrill of it all. Also, until that point, I had seen the body as more or less a toolbox. You have a bunch of stuff, it does important things, it isn't terribly exciting. My penis was something to urinate out of, and have the hassle of cleaning.

Fast forward a few years. I soon found that right after ejaculating, everything sort of worked itself out.
  • The constant doubting myself stopped
  • I felt genuinely happy
  • I felt calm
  • I felt willing to speak to people
  • I felt like my problems, (either mental or related to school / life), even though they presented challenges, could be overcome.
  • I could sleep. My mind goes flat out with random thoughts all day, that falling asleep can be problematic.
Aside from the pleasure, which is always enjoyable, they are reasons I masturbate.

Where does this blog fit in?

I am an introvert. I always have been, and I always will be. I have read that many introverts feel like they are acting when in public. That is the situation for me, and on top of that I did acting classes for over a decade. I have no problems in doing a presentation to 200 people, going my own eccentric way through public or anything else that requires confidence. But, ask me about sex, and I get squeamish. The problem is, I do have a few thoughts about it, but I could never get the courage to actually say them. This is a great chance for me to have my say.

So, what does the future hold? I can only guess ;)

I am still, slowly but surely losing the excess weight. I exercise every day for around a minimum of 1 hour. I have dropped so much that when I see myself in photos from a few years ago, I cannot believe it is me. But, you never really notice it yourself, you see yourself every day.

I don't doubt that I will meet someone, one day. But I will keep on masturbating until I can not. It is one of the few times, when things fall into place, fit together and make sense. You could argue a connection to a deity, not being religious, I would say masturbation is nature's own demister for the mind.

After reading that back, it sounds a little morbid and depressing. I'd like to say, that wasn't my intention. I am on the whole quite an upbeat sort of person, but I hide much of what I have said, under many layers.

So please, rub one out and see clearly :)

I'm all worn out!

I've always been a fan of Linda O'Neil. To me, she is perfect. So the other day when I downloaded a bunch of random images and some of Linda's showed up, I knew what had to be done.

Linda, you can make me salute you on a whim!

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Sugasm #45

The best of the sex blogs this week by the bloggers who blog them. Spotlighting the top 3 posts voted by Sugasmer participants. Want in Sugasm #46? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the linklist within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks
Foreplaying pool (
“‘What say we make this interesting,’ I began while circling the table looking at the available shots, ‘If I win, I get a kiss.’”

All Tied up (part 6): The End (
“To cut a very long story short (well, not quite that short), the evening finished with me cumming all over Thirty’s beautiful body.”

Tableau of sensuality (
“Use your other hand to explore further South… tickle that sensitive area around my navel… stroke the silkiness a little further below… and then you’ll find that silky soon becomes slick, plump and moist.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Fred Wilson, Venture Capital and Pornography (

Editors’ Choice
Sexbit - Fundraiser (

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On the Spanking Menu (
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Happy HNT-Hawaiian Memories and an announcement! (
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Teeny Tiny Plus Big ‘n Hard = Hot (
Why Does This Turn Me On? (

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
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Living Without My Computer Temporarily….. (
Not a total bitch (
RANT: God’s Asked Me to Whale On Yo Ass, MoFo! (

Erotic Writing and Experiences
The Day Wank (
Details… (
Disclosure (
How I got hooked (
I Want… (
On the Other Side of the Green Door Part IV (
Role Playing #4: Porn Film Shoot (
Saturday Night (
Seduced by the Goddess (
Splash! (
Their First Time (
Watch (

Sex News and Sexy Reviews
Free Shipping Offer Extended! (
Orgasm Army Sex Toys Review - Candy Bra (
Pressuring Hotels to Censor Porn (
Straight Porn Review: Stick it in Deep (
We Didn’t Get the Party Boat (

Sex Work
A Virtual Voyeur? (
In Theory: The Dissection of the Allowance of Respect and Whether Erotica Models are Deserving of Such. (
Webmaster Partying (

Monday, September 04, 2006

The August totals

August started off great. I managed to get heaps of wanking done.

The total for August was 25, which was equal to July, and the second lowest all told. The breakdown was staggering however. The first 3 weeks of the month, the traveling parent was away, meaning I was free to go full tilt. 21 of those wanks were while they were away. Leaving a measly 4 in the final week of the month.

All up for the year I have 247 wanks under my belt. 79 while the traveling parent is here, and 168 whilst away.

My original posit was that I get more wanking done throughout the year done when I am down a parent. It seems that way so far.

It is the 247th day of the year here. Which makes me on an even 1:1 ratio. My other aim was a 1:1 ratio for the whole year. That's only 118 left for the year and I have made my goal. If I had known yesterday's wank was the tying goal, I would have made it a little more glamorous than standing over the toilet :P

Why can't other challenges in life be so enjoyable? :)